When it all gets too much who do you turn to?
Turning to anyone seems a burden. Turn to my husband and he wants to know why? I don’t know why and that frustrates him. He wants to fix and needs to know why.
I don’t want to burden my friends even though they say I can. It will just make them worry and I don’t want that. They have their own issues to deal with and they don’t need mine.
Don’t want my daughter knowing for the same reasons. Hiding it from her is my main priority. She doesn’t need to know she’s been through and is going through a lot.
If I go to my doctor and take time off again my husband will find out… that feeling of letting him down kills me I feel weak.
Sitting in the car not wanting to go inside. Feeling dead inside but putting on a brave face. I cant do this much longer. I’m 51 now, I thought life would get easier but talking to my counsellor has made me realise life actually sucks!
Feeling like I’ve wasted so much of my life and for what? To be sitting in the car alone and wanting to be alone… no one seems to understand I don’t even know. I’m not scared of dying I’d be quite happy to go.
I don’t even have a shitty life. I work, I have a beautiful home, a loving family but I feel so empty… why? I feel so alone… I don’t think I can go on much longer. This world we live in is just tiresome. It doesn’t really mean anything at all.
Living with Mental Health 